My motherhood Journey : Keeping my head straight

I'm having this traumatic feeling. 

I keep hearing the sound of my baby calling me. Echoing through my ear and it goes to my brain circuits. 

The sounds keep coming through my brain and it goes everywhere I go. Trying to find a proper terms to explain what happen to my brain nerves-- My brain feel dysfunctional. My baby no 2 always  show his tantrum lately. He always cannot stay alone without my present. 

He cannot let me go far, out of his sight.

"Abuuu..abuu.." (He called me abu..instead of IBU).. He always wants to be with his aabuuu all the time. 

That 'abbbuuu' sound keep haunted me. Conquering my mind. 

My brain couldnt functional well. 

I think my mind need a break. 

Absolutely and obviously DAD truly NOT his ultimate favorite! 

Injunction of his crankiness , I guess I become less productive than ever before.

I must say,

He is lot different than my baby no 1. 

This baby of mine (no 2) is my BABY KOALA.

He is so clingy like that.

He always attached to me like super glue.

I cant even poop in peace and calm.

I feel like in the need to lay off (breastfeed) because he is no longer seriously want to sucks my milk. He only wants to attached to my body..He only love to 'latched' in other word 'ngempeng'. 

He keep on latching to me every single day lately and every single night. 

I always cannot sleep at night due to his long ngempeng. Now it become uncomfortable.

What is this baby doing?? latching on me whole night??

Huarggggghh. 

Im a light sleeper. Sometimes i couldnt sleep at all. 

Never had that super nyenyak sleep at night. 

And now I feel like i'm no longer 'being' a normal human being.

Letting him attached to me like super glue and i even.. have no time for my self (in peace, calm & harmony).

This is seriously getting my emotional in disastrous. 

Not a good mom at all.

My head feel delusional.

I think I'm a mutant, now. 

I love the fact that I am super attached to my baby koala. And I  love to bring him everywhere I go.

But, everyday can be super challenging and extravagant at the same time.


Hmmmm


Have you ever tried to breastfeed your baby while you drive? 

Oh I've done that! From Gombak to Shah Alam through highway. And that's the amount of overwhelming attachment situation that I had to deal with everyday. 


Husband said said I'm a true legend.

And I think I'm gonna have brain injury soon. 

I am likely.. love to dragged my baby along wherever I go. So when my baby refuse to seat on his car seat and he quickly jump over me. I quickly need to take action by breastfeed my baby. 

This is extremely dangerous especially when you drive across the highway.

And I advise you not to try to breastfeed your baby while you drive. I am confident and knew that my baby will sit still when I breastfeed him and while I'm driving at the same time.

Oh, please do tell your baby, don't drink your milk while you drive. Its really dangerous.   

And I am currently having a traumatic elctro-magnetic thunder light attack on my brain circuit.

This is crazy. I know. Whoever knew me they know my level of spontaneous stunt and random action. My dad, sisters, cousins and good friends they knew me very well. 

I'm in the situation in need to level up my patience.

And trying to keep my head straight. 

My innocent & happy baby Korea aka Baby Koala glamping at Genting (This picture taken early this year) before he became super clingy now


Arggghhhh