Konspirasi Senyum

Saya sudah mengerti. Sebaik melangkah masuk ke kantor berita (setahun lepas), I can see myself as a journalist and being so hectic, without acknowledge whoever came to me. So, I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't want any other commitment beside than my job.

I requested may Allah give me time and space. I don't want to meet anyone no more. And critically, I'm so alergic to my phone. And usually I will knocked my head whenever I hear my phone's ringing. I refused to answered any calls--I categorized this phenomena as 'my undesired situation'.

Everytime I go to the office, I had this 'weird smiling face'. I smiled sincerely from the bottom of my heart. Im happy and so glad no one asked me; "Where are you?" , "What are you doing?" "Who are you with now?" "What are you eating?" "When are you going back home?" and etc. 

I was blessed and grateful. I smiled everywhere and wherever I go.. I can feel my smile sparked through  my ears, eyes and forehead ...people think I'm crazy in love, but I am not.